I arrived at this point frustrated and angry mostly because I was frustrated and angry, but at nothing in particular. I was frustrated with my sin, not knowing it's source. I was trying to logically explain to myself why I was muttering under my breath at the person crossing the street too slowly, among other things. But I do know the source: Adam, original sin. Sure, it's great to be introspective to find the reasons why we do things in hope of improving, but that is futile if it's not found in the Gospel. And here I arrived at Deut. 9 and 10.
Deuteronomy is a retelling of the Law to Hebrew children whose parents passed away after their sin and were driven back into the desert. In Deut. 9, Moses is telling them the sin of making the golden calf while Moses is up on the mountain communing with God. When Moses gets down from the mountain, he finds the Hebrews, God's chosen people, worshiping this calf they made. Moses was mad, to say the least. Moses goes on to describe more of their wickedness, but...
in Deuteronomy 10:12-13, God shows his faithfulness in not giving up on them:
12 “And now, Israel, what does the Lord your God require of you, but to fear the Lord your God, to walk in all his ways, to love him, to serve the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul, 13 and to keep the commandments and statutes of the Lord, which I am commanding you today for your good?He hasn't given up on them despite their sin and failure. He calls them again to himself.
And in verse 15:
Yet the Lord set his heart in love on your fathers and chose their offspring after them, you above all peoples, as you are this day.And so God calls me and all believers to himself time after time of failure. He has called me to walk in his ways and fear him because of his faithfulness.